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[ candle light dinner ]

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 17:38:43 GMT

You wish there is someone that she can do for you.
I wish I am the person who do for you.

hmm. this have been linger for two months I think. Im not the most sohai. So everyone had being a sohai before. And the things we do more or less the same. Its like purposely go to the place that she might going. Just to bump her. stupid right? and never give up until she bumped her. sigh.

[ Im gonna smile even this not what I deserve to ]

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 17:37:32 GMT

Cant wait until that day =D.
hmm. But after that day you leaving KL.
sigh.

[ how about me ? ]

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 21:01:23 GMT

Sorry Karyn Lee.
I dont know why I do so.
I think you might angry with me now.
hmm. I dont know. Something once you know it might affect between me and you.

I know. I have alot choices. I can choose others but not you.
But I couldnt do so. So called fanjin?

I dont know what to do. Feeling bad you know?

I never reply the question you asked me.
I avoid to answer.
From the way you reply me I know you was angry.
I felt sad and angry you know. I cant tell you what I feel and I made you angry with me.

ps/These few days I kept recalling what did we do on that night. Its a sweet moment for me that I waited for long time. Every kisses every hugs are sweet for me.

[ wait or not ]

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 17:27:18 GMT

This is my current wallpaper.
Dont you think this is fucking nice?
Whatever. You made me speechless again.
Get in or get out?
Luckily I didnt make any decision.
thanks for making me speechless.
Something we dont talk about is the best.

I choose to be silent to maintain the relationship like now may be is the best.
I hope so. Arent you?

hey I love you. Do you know?

[ kissed you ]

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 08:55:24 GMT

Do you know I miss your hug so much?
I hope that Im always the one you need.
Just like you lie down on my shoulder.

I dont know about last night. Whats wrong with us? hmm
outta control?
I miss your lips karyn.

Drunk is an excuse.
I dont know what I've to do next.
Are we going to forget bout last night and continue our friendship or what?

You did helping on the girl I interested in.
I really dont know whats wrong with us.

[ I dont care what they said, the one I want is you ]

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 19:51:28 GMT

Its scary. After these few days I was outing with you. Am so worry cause I felt like we was like before that time we together. We didnt do anything. Just what I feel. It was like after class I went to fetch you. Then after yamcha back your place. The house were really NICE. guess what? I was imagine if you and me cook at there blabla... I just imagine that right infront of you. Somehow I like outta control. I scare of I lost control and hug you or what. I afraid cause of these outta-control-action might scare you off and I lost a friendship.

Or may be is not good that I meet you too often? But I dont know. I just cannot reject when you ask me for yamcha or what. I aprreciate the time when I be with you.

You told me I can talk to you whenever I want. You said you're always there for me. I know thats a friendship. thanks. How good if this is not a friendship huh? I nearly outta control again. I feel like tell you the truth. Feel like tell that actually I wanna hug you when we watching movie at your place. Feel like wanna kiss you. Hell.

Im helping you to reply the text to the one you interested in. whats with me?

[ FUCKUP ]

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 05:09:05 GMT

unpredictable? List of 5. Clearing 4. Not bad. Thanks for you all may be. Helping me to get over someone. Know what? When someone get hurted. Will affect them to NOT believing someone in the future. Yea I dont trust anyone else except my bestfriend. So now on anything I just tell her but not everyone. Cause I JUST DONT FUCKING BELIEVE OR TRUST ANYONE.

Yea am pretending that Im fine. Its quite annoying when I dont feel like want to tell. I know somehow as friend is worrying but I have my way to handle. So just leave me alone. I appreciate what you guys care.

Whatever. I know how depraved am I. How?

Flirt? yea. This what when one got hurt. TRUST no more. thanks.

[ im here ]

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 10:14:43 GMT

sighh. whatever. money is the most important. I only can say take care and becareful.

Had a phone call with you last night. seem like things clean and clear? yea thats what you tell me. The ugly truth I dont know. Whatever.

Hope dad and mum are fine. Both of you seem fine. But I dont know. hmm. no matter how. I will accompany you both support you. Im sorry for everything that I being childish. I dont know how. Someone messed up my life. Yet both of you are the most important person in my life. We can handle this together.

[ gonna hurt when it heals to ]

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 18:03:28 GMT

I smoke cause I trying to feel that you're by my side. Every stick telling how much I miss you. I listen to the song that you like and imagine that you singing together with the song. I keep the junk food that you left that day.

How you there? Are you fine? You're sucks. yet I miss you so much.

You didn't notice, you mean everything.

[ the issues ]

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 08:20:37 GMT

These few days kept look back everything between you and me. hmm. IT WAS REALLY FAST.
I typed everything Im not sure what else that I can say. Every post its like the same things.
I dont know am I waiting the stupid ending or I really wishing all the best to you and her. Sucha heartbreaker.

the way you do to me is damn crime =(